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It was a long day and I missed him more than usual. I woke up this morning with the lump in my throat that I haven't felt for quite some time now. Emptiness and a cold bed. I crawled to the bathroom on all fours because it hurt to walk upright. I sat on the floor of the shower and let the burning hot water roll over my face and down my chest, mixing with tears and sweat.
I can't make sense of it.
I need warmth and love and skin and laughter and intimacy and understanding.
I can't do this alone, not this time around.