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i've been on the verge of tears all day. i thought the drugs were supposed to rid me of that feeling.
i think i'm just exhausted.
it's halloween now and i'm sad. it's not what it should be.
no pumpkins were carved, no horror movies were watched and there will be no freaky clown sex.
it's not that i don't smile when i think back 365 days ago but i guess it's a double edge sword.
the good times tend to hurt worse than the bad times.
will christmas feel this way too?
how about valentines day...the one year anniversery of the giant bomb that was dropped.
i'm still wading through the fallout i guess.
that's not to say that things between us haven't been really good this week...they have.
he makes me smile as much as he makes me cry.
what else can i say?