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+it's all been said before.+
+10.15.03
+ 8:31 p.m.
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i just wrote an insane amount of words but realized that not a single one mattered.
so they've been deleted.
i feel sick tonight. i was going to go out but i suddenly don't think i'm in the right mindset to do so.
i think the only way i know how to describe this feeling is just a lonliness that runs so deep it makes my stomach turn over.
i would give anything to just have someone to fall asleep next to every night, to stop the pounding in my head and to feel warm breath on the back of my neck. i miss that feeling more than you will ever understand.
i need to find that again.
soon.